At 6:42 in the morning, Emma turned thirty-nine.
Her alarm rang exactly as it had the day before, and exactly as it would tomorrow. Outside, rain tapped against the window. Somewhere downstairs, a delivery truck reversed with the enthusiasm of a dying goose.
“Happy birthday to me,” she whispered.
The kettle didn't respond.
She checked her phone. Three notifications: an electricity bill, a supermarket discount, and a reminder that her car insurance would expire in eleven days. Not exactly the birthday wishes she had imagined as a child.
When she was seven, birthdays had been enormous events. There were homemade cakes, paper crowns, balloons that escaped to the ceiling, and presents hidden in cupboards.
At sixteen, she had wanted the whole world to notice. At twenty-one, she had believed every birthday marked the beginning of something extraordinary. At thirty, she had promised herself she would finally figure everything out.
Now, at thirty-nine, she was mostly hoping the washing machine would survive another year.
She made coffee, burned her toast, and looked at the little square on her calendar: OCTOBER 17 — EMMA'S BIRTHDAY.
She crossed it out. “There,” she said. “Celebrated.”
Then she put on her coat and went to work.
She had no idea that, by midnight, she would remember this birthday for the rest of her life.